Thursday, June 6, 2013

I'm not sure how many people actually read this thing, because frankly, I don't really say much..
But for those of you who do, I'm here to let you know that I'm tearing this blog down and rebuilding with a new one.
When that blog is ready and up and running and the way I like it, I'll post the link here.
It's just time for a fresh start is all. So. Here I go. :)

Sunday, February 24, 2013


"may you never steal, lie, or cheat..
but if you must steal, steal away my sorrows..
if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life..
and if you must cheat, please cheat death.. "

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

-kiss me slowly-

me: "i'm obsessed with the song, 'kiss you inside out' by hedley.. one line in particular.."
him: "what's that?"
me: " 'i will be the calm in the storm you're looking for, i'll be the shipwreck that takes you down.' it just makes a lot of sense to me. like, i hear it and i'm immediatley like, 'yeah. that's what i want. that's real love' "
him: "well.. i've got the shipwreck part down.. "
you finally said those three simple words.
and i love you too.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

-and i will cherish-

real love.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

i believe we are two broken people, who are just trying to fix each other.

and maybe people are right,

maybe we are exactly what the other need.


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

-sunny with a high of 75-

i have officially decided, that i am not going to go through life moping around and feeling sorry for myself.

pity party of one, for kaitlin?


no more pity parties, no more slugish days, no more "I DON'T WANT TO DO LIFE TODAY". no more. it all needs to end, and it will end here. last week sucked, and i would be lying if i said any different. but this week i have decided that i'm going to will it to be a good one, or else i'm going to hunt down life and punch it in the throat.

i am sick and tired of being sick and tired, and honestly, me being down in the dumps is not what God intends for me. so instead, i'm going to take life by the hand (unless it pisses me off of course) and enjoy it!
finding joy in the little things, people! that's what it's all about. i know it's cheesy to say that you have to stop and smell the roses, but you really do!
take a second to look up at the sky on a beautiful summers day, or the stars at night.

i saw the northern lights for the first time in years the other night. i was walking home from 711 with my roommate, and got really distracted. i stopped in the middle of the road to watch them dance. she thought i was nuts, but i needed that moment. i needed to stop and enjoy something beautiful. and it was. they were teal and blue and i felt like they were only dancing for me. of course, i know that's not true. but.. you get my point.
i got lost in that moment. and i got so lost that i ended up finding myself. or at least a part of myself.

i don't want to go through life depressed about this and that. life is way too short for that! we need to learn as busy-body humans that life is meant to be enjoyed! you are meant to live, and not just exist.

i suppose there is more to this personal over-haul than i originally anticipated.
oh well.
i'm not expecting any of this to be easy. "easy" and i have never really gotten along. where as "difficult" and i are pretty good friends. life has always thrown a bump or two my way, and honestly i wouldn't have it any other way. everything i have gone through has ultimatly made me stronger, and i really need to start believing that. i am stronger than even i believe or know.

standing on my own two feet,

i am stronger now than i was yesterday,

with You holding my hand,

i will look towards the future and say,

bring. it. on.

Friday, January 6, 2012

-i love you-

i'm not sure how many people actually read this, but i want to say something.

recently i have been going through a re-discovery of who i used to be, who i want to be, and ultimatly who i am, and i've had an ipiphany as far as my insecurities go.
it feels so incredibly awesome to be this close to my God.

and i just wanted to say something.

for those of you who feel like you've messed up too many times for anyone to love you,
you haven't.
for those of you who have pushed everyone away because you're afraid of letting someone in,
you're not.
for those of you who feel like you're the only one left,
you're not.
for those of you who feel like no one understands what you're going through,
they do.
for those of you who feel like something big, something that you might regret later, will help fix things,
it wont.
for those of you who feel like no one's listening,
He is.
for those of you who feel like there's no one to talk to,
there is.
for those of you who feel unworthy,
you ARE worthy.

you are so much more than you know. you are beautiful, you are wonderful, you are wanted, you are needed, you are loved.

i love you.

and if i could, i would wrap my arms around you and tell you everything's going to be okay, because it will be. everything will be alright. cry now, and laugh later. and when do you laugh, laugh like it's an infection of the soul. like you can't control it. just let it take you over and let it do something amazing in your life.
all things will work out in the end.

i promise.

"it seems that all my bridges have been burned,
but you say 'that's exactly how this grace thing works'"
mumford and sons - roll away your stone.