-sunny with a high of 75-

i have officially decided, that i am not going to go through life moping around and feeling sorry for myself.

pity party of one, for kaitlin?

NO.

no more pity parties, no more slugish days, no more "I DON'T WANT TO DO LIFE TODAY". no more. it all needs to end, and it will end here. last week sucked, and i would be lying if i said any different. but this week i have decided that i'm going to will it to be a good one, or else i'm going to hunt down life and punch it in the throat.

i am sick and tired of being sick and tired, and honestly, me being down in the dumps is not what God intends for me. so instead, i'm going to take life by the hand (unless it pisses me off of course) and enjoy it!
finding joy in the little things, people! that's what it's all about. i know it's cheesy to say that you have to stop and smell the roses, but you really do!
take a second to look up at the sky on a beautiful summers day, or the stars at night.

i saw the northern lights for the first time in years the other night. i was walking home from 711 with my roommate, and got really distracted. i stopped in the middle of the road to watch them dance. she thought i was nuts, but i needed that moment. i needed to stop and enjoy something beautiful. and it was. they were teal and blue and i felt like they were only dancing for me. of course, i know that's not true. but.. you get my point.
i got lost in that moment. and i got so lost that i ended up finding myself. or at least a part of myself.

i don't want to go through life depressed about this and that. life is way too short for that! we need to learn as busy-body humans that life is meant to be enjoyed! you are meant to live, and not just exist.

i suppose there is more to this personal over-haul than i originally anticipated.
oh well.
i'm not expecting any of this to be easy. "easy" and i have never really gotten along. where as "difficult" and i are pretty good friends. life has always thrown a bump or two my way, and honestly i wouldn't have it any other way. everything i have gone through has ultimatly made me stronger, and i really need to start believing that. i am stronger than even i believe or know.

standing on my own two feet,

i am stronger now than i was yesterday,

with You holding my hand,

i will look towards the future and say,

bring. it. on.